Number 19, I emailed her unexpectedly this morning and asked her out to lunch (out at the hacienda), and made a firm plan for dinner. I was johnny on the spot for my baby. My plan is to head for bed now, wearing skimpy panties and my cutest nightie. I figure, she obliged on our wedding night, it’s the least I can do to return the favor. I love her, will always. Sometimes it hurts. Other times it feels good to be thoughtful about someone else’s needs, regardless whether there is reciprocation, appreciation, acknowledgement.